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I contemplated killing myself today

As tears poured down my selfish face

No one was around that seemed to care

So I sat abandoned and drowned in my misery

 

It’s demented how the past terrorizes us

Buried secrets still reach up and claw at us

As much as I profess that I am fine

I’m a mental wreck fighting against time

 

For hours I sat alone engulfed in my thoughts

Of how I never got closure to some ghastly events

Yet I move on and smile in front of everyone

So they can gossip about how strong I am

 

When “she” called and said she could take my pain away

I decided I could use a little “me” time

Each kiss lethal poison like a hit from a pipe

My mind feeling at ease, feeling reconditioned

 

For hours we escaped from each other’s sorrows

Providing release from the sins of our lives

Each kiss bursting innocence into my mind

Each thrust flushing balance into my unstable thoughts

 

Once she left I was all alone to face my fears

The fear of living life all alone

Yet anytime someone gets close to me

I push them away, keep them from my misery

Tears poured down my face once again

I cried myself to sleep where no one can hurt me

 

 

Reviews

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

This hurt to read. Why?
1. Because I adore you. To imagine you in that much pain, makes me want to beat the crap out of someone.
2. Because I don't want you to push me away.
3. Because instead of just contemplating killing myself, I actually tried. Ended with seizures, a 2 day coma, and a 6 day stay in the hospital. All because of what someone did to me.

I think you're in a better place now, and I hope it stays that way.

With that being said,
it was a great piece. I could totally relate, and as sad as that is, i love it when that happens.

Great job!
Kisses