Never Noticed

 

 

I never noticed before now

That when it got too much

When things weren't a smile

If my feelings got 'bad'

I'd hide away

Behind a neko-chan smile

Puffing out my gray smoke

That was offering black lungs

Because it was always so much easier

Than dealing with these horrible feelings

Of having to tell the truth

To myself along with everyone else

I just never saw before this time

That smoking became another mask

 

Author's Note

Cp. 9:03PM Tue 07/08/08 'Permission' SixxAM lonely, the no smoking is really huring me, aggitated, i feel like i can't breath, oh shit here comes reality, hide me (Typed, House)

Reviews

[Willow Wild]

I honestly love the imagery in this poem! My grandfather went through the same thing, so I understand a bit.....I understand hiding your feelings that’s what I did for the longest time and still do a bit.