I failed

The landscape came haunting back

Every night as I retired,

Memories of fast fading past.

 

Events whizzed by me

As I failed to recall any significant incident

That triggered my loss.

 

What did I do?

Why did I do so?

How did I do so?

What compelled me?

 

I know not.

 

I looked forward

But the view was blurred.

I couldn’t look back.

 

I tried hard to recollect

I banged my head against the wall

I went to psychiatrist

I looked up snapshots

 

But I just couldn’t remember.

 

Melodies haunted me.

But no words did I register.

People smiled at me,

But no faces did I recognize.

Letters were posted to me

But I didn’t know who they were.

 

Why did this happen to me?

Did I willingly block the world out?

Or, did I lose touch with my soul?

Or, did I lose my nerve?

Perhaps not.

As I ramble on

I realize

 

I allowed my present to erase

Everyone

Everything

Everywhere.