Letter to the Jury

If he had to go court these actions

I would be on the stand

I would be called to testify

His love burned into my hand

I would tell them with

Every fiber of body

Every blood I've lost

Every tears I've dropped

And i would tell them

Without a doubt

That the man is guilty

From love to nothing

From promises to bluffing

Confusing,

Unreasonable

And just so f*****g difficult.

Now he's the one who’s pissed

Says his grief made him do all this

Sorry if you need a little space

This was never the time or place

The second you’re done

Pretending to be the only one

Who listens

The only one hurt by this s**t and

I’m so sick of it all

Have to look up at your tall a*s

Every single day

And pretend that there’s no way

That anything’s wrong 

The jury looks up

To see that im crying

The layer keeps asking

Thinks that I'm lying

I look him in the eye

And ask him why

If i’m in the wrong, 

Then just how f*****g long

Was he supposed to be untouchable?

Well, layer says he’s depressed

I just shake my head

I know, that’s what he said

From love to nothing

Please tell me how this works,

It’s been his depression month

For four months,

Going on five

He’s been so, oh so sad

It’s my fault that I’m mad 

Come on, poor guy lost his dad

You know, five years ago

You just don’t understand

This poor, innocent man

The trauma he’s forced to withstand!

Don’t f*****g talk to me about your trauma

Well, now I’m off the stand

And guess who’s up next 

It's this man.

And he goes up there

His shoulders pulled back 

His eyes shining

With tears?

With fear?

With fury?

He sits down, he looks up

His brows all furrowed

The sobs start falling

This man is just bawling

About everything

All of it

But somehow nothing still

From love to absolute zero

He tells me here was there for me

No

He’s just making s**t up, now

He’s the one, not me

Who ran away the moment things got tough

The moment that it wasn’t easy

The moment i was not perfect

Was not a yessman

Was not comfortable with what he is putting me through

He thinks I’m mad for him grieving

I’m mad for him leaving

Leaving me to put my pieces back together

Leaving me to sort through it all

When he said we were so close

The moment i feel a little broke

I’m being too harsh.

He’s done testifying

Finished with his crying

Crying wolf, crying wolf, the little boy who cried wolf.

Mentally

Emotionally damaged

The poor little disney kid

He told me he’d plead guilty

And yet two weeks later

He’s gotten off the hook

Shoulda seen the look

He sent me at the end

How was he ever even my friend?

In his eyes, I see so much

I see a broken boy, a missing boy

A boy I used to know.

I used to comfort

I used to love

It’s a slap in the face

No, a chair to my head

Unsatisfied with the verdict?

No s**t

Author's Note

This is a song that me and a friend have been working on for, like, ever. Idk if you can tell but I really don't like the dude that I wrote it about lol, wish I never had to talk to him ever again but alas, he's in all of the same stuff as me at school sad sad
ALSO some of the lines might pop out as really nonsensical, and just grammatically questionable. I am aware and it is very intentional! Those lines are direct quotes from the shit he has either said to my face or texted to me because he didn't have to spine to actually talk to me or the other ppl he hurt lol. Just a detail I added, doesn't make sense to most ppl who don't know the situation but I thought it would help if y'all knew :)

Reviews

[Nico]

Really love it, its different from the last time I reviewed it (I want to say but also my memory could be fuzzy). In terms of music, Consider rock format, maybe like a mix of Panic at the Disco's Ballad of Mona Lisa with Red Jumpsuit Apparatus'es song Face Down.

[Mila]

This fic has completely stolen my heart