I lost my best friend

I'm used to being let down, but never would I have expected to be let down from a close friend. 15 year's of memories and the cold shoulder are no joke. I keep telling myself that this is all a bad dream. That pretty soon I'll just wake up from it. Being let down yet again is painless. I push away people that try to get close to me. When I do let people get close, they take what left of my heart. With that being said 15 yrs of friendship down the drain for a "temporary girlfriend" that will take everything from you and act like she has your best interest at heart, wrong I know what's best for you because I know who you truly are. But it's okay I'll act like I don't have any feelings. When do my feelings ever matter?

Author's Note

I lost my best friend today, for a relationship. So I'm kinda mad but I'm all good 😂 I'm more of a lone wolf.