No. 300 On My List Of Fears

So this is it

My goal

 

Inside I feel a beam of hope

Extinguished

I feel nothing

                I’m not proud of what I’ve done

                                How I’ve got here

                I’m not proud

 

So this is it

All I ever wanted

To feel ‘rich’

 

But you should know

That now

I write out of habit

Not because I have anything

To say

 

I’m just sitting here

Procrastinating

Because I can’t face life

And all it entails

Because

I’d rather live in my head

Where the bad guys

Are sexy

Than out of it

                Where they’re overweight

                                And balding

 

I’m just sitting here

Putting off waking up

Because he’s right

                I never do read the news

I just can’t face it

(The Real World)

No. 300 on my list of fears.

Reviews

[Beatrice Mars]

Ahhhhhh loveage! The real world sucks and when you get to something it's never that great, but this is!!!!!!