Scared To Sleep

I’m scared to sleep

Because sleeping means

Dreaming

And dreaming means

A middle state of consciousness

Where nothing’s real

But everything

Seems to be

 

I’m scared to sleep

Because sleeping means

Waking up

And I don’t want to feel

That sinking feeling

In the pit of my stomach

That says I have to live

Through another day

 

I’m scared to sleep

Because I don’t want to lose

Myself in that mindless state

Don’t want to lose the words

That buzz in my brain

That rattle and scream

And howl and choke

To be let out

 

I’m scared to sleep

Because right now

I’m prone to attacks of panic

That grip me like a cold vice

And I’m not sure

What’s wrong

All I know is

Something is

 

I’m scared to sleep

Because I’m paranoid

And I’m sure it all

Focuses around

The hours I spend lost

The hours I miss

The time when I’m not aware

 

I’m scared to sleep

Because I don’t want to be

Distracted

And I don’t want to close

My eyes on my

Lurking fears

(Just in case they close in)

Reviews

[Beatrice Mars]

I didn't notice the lack of punctuation, but I think that's what helped make that sense of panic, as if you have no control over what you're saying...Or something that made more sense in my head...Loved it! ;)

[Mischa Keats]

The repetition is lovely. Therei s absolutely no punctuation in this, and that's going to be my only complaint. Punctuation would help this read easier. But I love the idea and follow through of this.