father

sometimes i get so mad that you are not here

to guide me

to walk me down the aisles of life

to watch with me the smiling faces of those i love

and it hasnt even happened yet

sometimes i wish i could hate you

for giving me so much love

sometimes i feel it would have been easier

if i didnt need you so much

i wish one day i could walk in the room and see you

if only for a second

but you are gone a memory

and i am left with this gaping hole

and a lost heart

id do anything not to cry for you sometimes

not to grieve

but this will never go away

it hurts to be happy at times

if only because i want to punish you in the heavens for leaving me so soon

i know

i know i must give out love

and make you proud

be strong for her for me

for my family

for my friends

but its so difficult

when im this angry

and sad

i never let myself grieve before

i turned to stone

at the thought of you

i fought it

and that was when i realized i could control

my emotions

when needed

but i am a passionate soul

and i battle every day

to exist

i miss you

more than ever

when im happy.

Reviews

[EMF]

Lot's of people write about their family. Normally they sugar coat it. You haven't. This is a very raw and emmotive poem that shows the love, frustration and anger perfectly. And when it cut's, it cuts like a razor. Superbly written with honesty and passion. Great job