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i feel ill at ease

it was so apparent

how wrong we were

but i stayed

for a year

dont get me wrong

i loved

but i dont think i was ever in love

i collapse at the thought of my own blindness

he should have only been a friend

that is only too clear now

its true that you should listen to your heart

the heart knows

no wonder i was so sick.

i lied to myself everyday thinking he would change

we needed completely diffrent things

and now i look back at a  year of work and see nothing but despair

i should have known.