i sat there

smoking the sky so it wouldnt be so bright...
cold alone with winding thoughts
binding me to myself
solitude adores me and i love him
misery accompanies me and he is my muse
love is who i long for but he escapes me
only returns to tease me with dreams

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what do you do when youve found what you want
when you know what you want but cant seeem to attain it
the lord tells you you dont deserve it.
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ill put myself through more pain
self destructions so entertaining
ive quit once ill quit again
or so i seem to say
to go back or not to go back?

that is the question.

 

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im raging wars with myself.

         mind vs. emotion

emotion vs. mind