numb dead girl

this screen is glaring

i cant think

my fingers are pressing pressing

my throughts screaming for relief

what to write what to write

nothings coming easily

numb dead

im a numb dead girl

emotions escape me now

and i dont see a thing

cause my eyes are numb dead

i fell in love once

or twice

maybe thrice

one was love

two were completely in love

i have a good man who i love

i have a best friend whom i love completely but cant have

and he cant have me

i loved a guy once

i met him in art

we were friends

it didnt last

now im numb dead girl

and i cant love anymore

i wish they would hurry up

and throw me in the ground