smoke & azure ray

i was numb
              dead         before i hung up
"babe i dont have much time i might be headed to prison for a very long time"
my heart stoped
                        the blood drained from me
dried up   turned to dust          my stomach crumbled slicing pain
i cant i cant i cant weep now
"me and j just got in an accident. i love you with all my heart. bye sweetie"
     i cant i cant i cant i cant weep now.
i hung up the phone. dont cry.
                                      dont.
    please dont.
i told him i told him i told him i told him
                           i warned him i told him i hate him why
i was weeping by then. smashed my fist against the wall.
                 tears flooding the pain in my chest back.
i told him i told him i told him
                                 i was weeping now
my heart was broken as soon as j had walked into that door i knew it was coming. i knew s**t was just going to get worse fall apart