Is this the end my friend or just a some what morbid Beautiful Beginning Chronicle I

�Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.� �Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit."�

I felt it, I felt it vibrate by the grace of god I did. She was Near death when I got the call. All that I heard was "911 911 911". So I Called and Gave the operator the Information needed. Then I hung up called back whats wrong are there pills involved did you take too many? "Yes Yes, moans and groans can only be heard at this point. I called back 911 what is your emergency? I am the previous caller I just gave you my info there are pills involved and she is fading quick please I am giving you and your personnel to enter the house by any means necessary, What yes I live there its in your files please hurry up!

At this point I really only remember running and me running like a god damn marine as fast and efficiently as possible. and the kinda remember tossing my jacket over my hand and and punching through the glass and then kicking down the door and screaming at the medics why are you standing there.

Attempted Suicide Mr. Walker What? What the hell are you talking about how do you know that? She said it to the firemen. Mr. walker have you seen this note before. At this point I am reaching for the note and was pushed away by the police and kicked out of my own house and well then I began yelling at the police and then I do remember kicking the chairs and being arrested and then just fined along with talking to the police.

Om Monday October 29, 2007 my mother attempted to commit suicide  and Failed and Survived and now At twenty years old with my life just beginning . I now have to Make the Decisions in my life do I stay here and Help her financially and manage the bills or do I continue with life as planned and take care of my self what is the right decision to make Only I know the answer to these questions. This is the beginning of my life what do I do Where do I go I am the only one that can help her and Help myself. I am no longer the child Looking and seeking advice I am now some what the parent seeking advice.

Authors note This is going to be a chronicle of my life and where it is taking me. There will be different  titles to these but there will be  a subtitle

Author's Note

This is the Beginning and the End in some cases. It is the First chapter in the new life that I am attempting to start and well I hope you enjoy this chronicle and the others to come.