i miss...

HE came

i found my voice
i was finally completely me
i grew so much in 5 months
i learned how to say no
i stopped eating grilled cheese's just because GB wanted one
i stopped letting EVERYONE walk all over me
i learned how to be happy
i almost even learned how to love myself...

now HE'S gone

i never tied it to HIM

but when HE left

HE took me with HIM

i'm trying to remember everything that came with HIM
everything i learned
trying to mirror it
be the danie i became with HIM
trying to give everyone the new danie
though it's really juts little danie who as no voice
playing dress up

right back where i began
if i wasn't hurting so much i'd laugh

only one person has noticed that i'm not right
a man who's known me what, a month or two at the most
how did he see it?
my family doesn't see it but "butch" does

"i miss danie"
were "butchs" words

just a few days without my Sir....
and danie has disappeared




i won't tell anyone that matters
but i miss danie too