Why Do I Try?

I fight and fight. 

To stop leaving scars. 

Or to be happy with myself. 

Enough to eat more then once a day. 

But then. 

I put myself right back in this hole. 

Where I claw and struggle until my fingers bleed. 

Just to make everyone happy. 

And to not make them worry. 

But it eats at me 

Until I give in again. 

To the sweet calls. 

Reviews

[Bluefire]

You try because you want to, and you give in because you're human.
I like the imagery in this and the story is very relatable. I hope it all works out in the end that was not told. ^^

[Kitten]

Thank you.

[Bluefire]

You're welcome.

[Glitter]

Well...in answer to the title...I hope you try because YOU want to be happy, and not because of all of us. I know how hard it is...and Ash, I'm so insanely proud of you for at least trying to get through it. I just want you to know that. I'm glad you're fighting. I just hope it's for you, because you want to be happy and to have a good future, and not to please everyone else.

[Kitten]

I do it mainly so I can be happy. But I just feel like I'm never going to get to the point I want to be at. And I'm just ready to quit. But thanks...

[Glitter]

I understand that love...I know you can do it. I believe in you. If you need to take breaks between it's okay. Relapse is okay, falling again is okay...I just need you to get back up whenever you feel you're able to. Alright?

[Kitten]

I will try.... I'm just scared to relapse cause I may not come back this time..

[Glitter]

I understand...it's gonnabe okay sissy...we'll help you...you just need to trust us and let us in...whenever you feel comfortable.

[Kitten]

I already have let yew guys in... A lot more then yew think.... I just... Hide it so I don't upset others..

[Glitter]

I know...you don't have to worry about upsetting us...or at least me. I'm willing to listen and not judge or let it affect me. (unless you want me to I guess?)

[Kitten]

I would prefer that not happen..

[Glitter]

Hehe...well...I'm always willing to listen. Alright?

[Kitten]

Ok... Thanks sissy..

[Glitter]

Love you sissy~

[Kitten]

I love yew too.