Where do I fit?

Most aspects. 

I have worked out. 

But something major. 

That's going to take time. 

Is where I'm lost. 

And it is really. 
Effecting my everyday life. 

Some days. 

I feel ok. 

Because I find a way to be happy.

Others. 

I sit here in pain. 

Hating every bit of me. 

In a different way then before. 

And I don't know what to do about it. 

I'm so confused. 

And scared. 

I just wish I could be happy.... 

Author's Note

I don't even know...