My life

My first poem on here. I just kinda have a lot going on. Mentally. I guess.. So I need to get it out..

It's all changing. 

Some parts for the better. 

Some for the worst. 

I've made up my mind.

I like girls. 

And more then just friends. 

Boys aren't for me. 

It doesn't mean I cant still have them as friends.

I love the life I have chosen.

On the other hand. 

At times. 

I dont feel the need to be here. 

I dont know why. 

I just dont. 

It's not because of him. 

I would never think this way because of a guy. 

That would be dumb. 

I just wish I knew why I feel this way. 

I wanna get away from it. 

I tried to go away. 

But couldn't take not seeing everyone.

Even if it meant getting help.

I still couldn't say goodbye for that short time. 

It tore me up. 

Not to mention. 

The new part of me. 

I dont know how he became realish. 

I mean, sure. 

I made him up. 

But never thought he would exist in my skull.

As another person.

Another part of me. 

Deo Anderson. 

A boy with more mental issues then me. 

Living in my mind

And coming out to talk to people whenever he feels like. 

No one sees it expect a few people. 

Anyone that knew cant tell when he is around because I cut my hair. 

His doing? 

Maybe.. 

But I like it. 

So it doesn't matter. 

I keep him hidden for fear that people will shun me

Or call me insane. 

I'm so scared of so many things.. 

Why can't I just be free?  

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

Living in my mind.
Nice write.