behind the curtain of a friendship

The truth about a friendship that no longer exists.

"Hey kid, wake up".

That's how this friendship started. Long ago, my life revolved around a fictitious realm, with no end. School was naptime. School was, unreal. But this girl, this, seemingly angelic creature, ripped me from that line between dream and reality. For that was all my sleep was at this time. Just the downtime between games. I'll give her credit for snappin' her fingers at that moment.

Unfortunately, it would take a walk through an emotional hell before I'd be able to regain who I was, as a person.

   She lived a game herself. And it truly takes someone who was in my position to fully understand that. You see, this "angelic creature" turned out to be no more than a fallen angel. You know, fallen angels.. they trip alot.

No, that was her sister. Who was the complete polar opposite of what came to be known as my "best friend".

I'll tell you all the truth right now: A best friend doesn't use you as a person, they don't betray the little ounce of good you may have in you.

Some people tell me I'm a good guy. I guess I can see that. I'm still shocked I refused to face the truth about this "friend" for so long. There were so many instances where I should have said "enough is enough". You do not know how much patience I had for this girl. On and off, my mind figured I had some sort of romantic affliction within itself, and I was convinced of things that I truly knew weren't true.

I think her best attribute would be that for the longest time, she was beautiful. Beauty only goes so far though, doesn't it?

One day, this was maybe, a few months back, I actually had to leave their residence.. the arguing between the two sisters was so intense. Halfway down the street you could still hear the screaming. But who's fault was it? For the longest time, I was convinced the younger sister was mischievious. But, after enough times of seeing my "friend" go off on her own flesh and blood, for the tiniest of things, that weren't even her fault...

Yeah, that idea of her being "beautiful" faded fast. And once that fog was removed from the equation... the bad things begin to show up. Is was strongly evident that this "friend" took possession of her 'pawns'(her versions of friends), and would manipulate them into believing about any word that she said.

Even my 'advisors' and my dearest people couldn't convince me otherwise.

I about went to war with one of her exes, who, to be honest, is probably one of the coolest people I've ever met. An intellectual as well. I still can't understand how exactly I could have been convinced not to befriend someone, that could speak my own "language"(of knowledge).

And it isn't the extra hours I'd waste just hanging out with her, to keep her company, only for the next guy, who was more "desirable"(if you catch my drift...), and it isn't the emotional turmoil I faced whenever I'd see her walk off with another guy. No. I believe, between the events involving:

1) a brute force reaction to a friend's door in response to him simply getting a little 'action'

2) a public incident involving my boot and a middle schooler(yes, that's right, I'm a baaaaad man. that day alone would require a book.. suffice it to say, I almost got arrested for trying to maintain the peace, and make a youngin' back away from me)

Those two events made me FULLY REALIZE that this girl was nothing more than a temptress to self destruction.

it reached its end, in a 2nd period squabble, about how to deal with telemarketers.. Can you believe that?

Petty little disputes over pointless topics. She liked to keep it going. Always tried to be right. Always had to justify herself. And always had the final say.

so.. with that.. here is the final dialogue of that delightful ending:

-argument, she has to have her final say-

DP:You're just a dumbass

friend: (dramatic freeze, slowly turns around, and wags her finger) What... did you, say?

DP: you heard me

friend: don't you EVER, talk to me again

DP: mmkay =D

friend: EVER!

DP: mmkay XD

friend: EVEER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DP: ^_^ mmkay

(bell rings)

friend: GAH! just f*ck off!

DP:(turns to Avery) dude... I feel like Charlie F*cknig Sheen right now!!

And indeed I did. and yes, that is EXACTLY as it played out. the event was so monumentous that I absolutely HAD to memorize it.

So far, the days since have brought laughable statements told to me my trusted friends.. one of which read "I hope it keeps you up at night". I ROFLMAOCOPTER'd at that!

Friends, and I am addressing my real friends here... not.. "that":

Whether you believe this or not, hate me or love me, This is what has been hiding behind the curtain of a friendship. It began somewhere around August of freshman year, ended last week of March.

I guess it just goes to show, until you truly examine who your closest friends are.. you might just be blind.

And to the Queen of manipulation herself.. if she happens to read this via public viewing,

I could say a million horrible things to you. But I think the only thing I really want to tell you is...

Good luck... with, all that......

Reviews

[Aislinn Gryffin ((Ashes..]

TB,
You have no idea how much i wish you had realized this earlier.
I remember when you used to write poems about her, and every single one was good, but the poem you wrote about me made me look evil and made me cry.
It was like she could do no wrong. She would mistreat you and take her s**t out on you, then you would let it out on me. That's what it felt like. That's one reason i never liked her much. I respected that she was your best friend, that's why i never told you this.

Anyway, i'm glad that you finally opened your eyes to who she is. But i am truly sorry it had to be through such a personal hell. And i'm also truly sorry some of your "friends" are still wearing blinders and believing her about you. It will pass. Soon they will see too. I hope for their sakes anyway...

Love you,
FB

[Elizabeth]

Ditto to Monty. Chin up, kiddo. :)

[Mr. Revan]

@ montykoolaid:

OH ROFL!

That made my day!

[Montykoolaid]

For future reference... in your later teens and early twenties your going to get laid a lot more.

[HappyTaylor]

I wish you would tell me all of those HORRIBLE things David. PLEASE. I beg of you!!!!