Twice minded

i guess what im feeling right now, and the confusion on what to do.

I am lost , For one more time,

each moment binds me,

controls this mind,

i am your puppet,

and you my master,

Can you consume me?

and kill me faster?

I lose my bloody mind,

hold it in my pale hands,

speak to me and ask me for it,

and i will kneel to your command.

For when you reccomend me follow,

I will bite my lip and sigh,

are you the lead i should be taking?,

the one to run and hide behind?

But there is one thing i cant forget,

the words i scremed to someone else,

and ive given you so much of mine,

but inside creeping , my heart resigns.

So what is it that i shall do?

When lost in him , and held to you?

should i curse or bleed or fail,

grab him closely , leave you so frail?

This life has shaped me ,

misguided yet, and proven,

that i am weak, and left wide open,

because i cannot forget either of you,

it hurts either way ,its really true,

behind my slang, there are three words,

that my teeth do slither past whats heard,

for i have cast away my shield,

and wandered into his open field,

for what i seek is your protection,

but his bullets piercing , i refuse prevention,

So help me out , either way i decide,

from this abyss , to unravel my mind.