Random Thoughts

As I listen to the silence of these barren rooms

I feel so anxious and overwhelmed by grief

There has been too much unbearable pain

This house has held too much misery

I feel the agony of defeat

 

Random thoughts

As I ramble on about nothing

About everything

Except what's really bothering me

So I try to write words of poetry

 

My son is dead

God I hate those words

But it is the truth

Killed by a drunk driver

A year ago

 

Just random thoughts

I hurt so deep inside

I still can't believe

He is truly gone

It's so messed up

 

I need him

His sister's need him

And he can't ever

Be with us again

That is horror for me

 

It's ironic

The last conversation we had

Was about writing

He said "Mom, just make something up"

Trouble is I lost my imagination a long time ago

 

He was the storyteller

I just write poems when I can

I wish I could write one now

I wish I could write out my true feelings

But something keeps holding me back

 

These are random thoughts

Too many troubles

And I can't seem to write them down

To put them to pen and ink

For if I could perhaps it would help

 

Like a broken record

Songs play in your head

Thoughts race through manic minds

All we have is time

And, time is running out

Reviews

[PoetryXpressions]

Your Random Thoughts were beautifully expressed. I'm sorry for your loss. May the lord hear my prayers and bring comfort to your heart in your times of need. I thank you for sharing this sad and heartfelt poem.