the consequentialist

chain reaction

dominates this life

& to walk astray from

this path, creates a

domino effect of which

not one part can

separate itself.

 

walking then with

a lucid conscience,

walking carefully,

can become a burden,

as paranoia, anxiety &

nervousness

culminates,

piling up atop the back

like an endless stack of

cinder blocks. 

 

balancing on the beam,

wondering why s/he got up

on the beam, wondering

if anyone sees him/her on

the beam, wondering how

that will affect them,

wondering if they will take it

with them (consciously/

unconsciously),

panicking that the beam

will shake & if one

shakes where will one

fall & if one calls for

help, what will become of

the sound? 

 

monitoring the actions of

the self so completely,

one would be able to sleep

the soundest of sleeps,

having not sent the whole of

the world into chaos

with a single blow,

however,

one cannot sleep if one

cannot leave the beam

to lay down---

consequentially,

s/he must learn to sleep

standing up.