weekends & every other tuesday

today

she beats herself up because she hadn’t thought ahead

she’d gone with her emotions full steam into a romance &

in it she lost her head,

she believed in what she thought would always last

until it didn’t &

somewhere along the way she got

pregnant---

as things will go, he decided that she,

being younger & highly involved in her climbing

her own particular career ladder,

would lead her to not be around as much,

custody was made joint &

so now she sees her daughter on the

weekends &

every other tuesday---

still, many of her friends say she got lucky,

that with a better bunch of lawyers &

a whole lot of funds,

he could have walked away from her completely,

making more of the amphetamines which she dabbled in

to stay up for a couple days on end

to finish the crunch of a school semester---

now firmly rooted in her own path &

with success just looming over the horizon,

a life that to her could have been as full & bright as a

storybook tale,

is tainted with the mistake made

of which all she can do is learn &

hope her daughter doesn’t do the same.