Shards

For Felicia. Oh sigh

Words rip like shards of broken glass

From someone I never really had

I've realized the worst of my fears

You brought a big bad Marine to tears

 

If only you weren't so beautiful

Funny charming and incredible

Baby why did you let me fall for you

If this is what you were going to do

 

You had such a beautiful feminine light

THat brightend up my masculine life

It's over now and you're not coming back

You made that clear with your verbal attack

 

If only we hadn't had so much fun

I convinced myself you were the one 

leading me on with cruel lovely lies

I wanted to crawl out in the street and die

 

I'll never forget that miserable day

I got in my car and just drove away

Oh baby girl you ripped out my heart

Is that what you wanted to tear me apart

 

So whats up with the rest of the story

No great luck and no great glory

I did something I swore I would stop

Down to the hood and scored 60 of rock

 

Down down down down down I fell

Back Into that tweaking nightmare hell

Got no sleep for five days straight

I felt like my brain needed to be raped

 

Back from another coke fueled binge

Nephrons and neurons feeling the singe

Maybe this time I think I'm all through

Such A tragedy baby all I wanted was you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

I deleted the origional durng a childish temper tantrum so this is a repost. It's not exact but close. I know drugs aren't a solution for anything because I've tried.

Reviews

[KAOlmsted]

...it would appear we all slip every once in a while...glad you made it back. FYI, so did I ;-) As always, Baby, a very raw and emotional write...nobody does it quite like you, and I mean that sincerely.

-kimmer

[Baby Ricochet]

Oh god Felicia. I still sigh with regret when I think about her. I thought we really had something, I was wrong. I never thought this poem was one of my "master pieces" but it is deeply personal. Thank you for reading Shards Kimmer.

[FJ Davis]

A very sad, oh-so-familiar tale, BR.
No earthly need, however, to have made it sadder.
Effective--easy to relate to--verse.

[Baby Ricochet]

thanx

[Pax]

you trim it down, but still good. keep it up

[Baby Ricochet]

thanx

[Sami Khalil]

Words rip like broken shards of glass .
Very poetic

[Heather Maria]

Very emotional! You display emotions through unique metaphors and descriptors.

[Baby Ricochet]

thanx

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

Glad you reposted. This one is so vulnerable and honest. It really touches me to read this revealing side of you. The writing is a better way to work through her, but sounds as if you figured that out. Well written as always. Next time, just unpublish...you never know when you'll want to repost !

[Baby Ricochet]

Thanx. I didn't know you could do that but that would require rational thought. Something I wasn't doing with all those deletes

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

I've just had to use it a time or two...I have learned to anticipate my irrationality and try to give myself time to rethink. LOL

[Panda]

~smiles~ sad poem, but i liked it ^_^
"I felt like my brain needed to be raped"

[Baby Ricochet]

thanx

[Panda]

:P no problem

[Panda]

it deleted the rest of my review