[Restrained Spirit] (2003)

lolangst (drawing by me)

Alone in the night

Shackled to the unknown depths of the deep, icy, water
I sit and wait
Waiting for something to happen
Wanting to be saved
Wailing from the eternal pain that slithers through my skin
Waking up from my nightmares
only to return to the shrouded light and hostility

With muffled screams inside from my forcely closed mouth
My wings have stopped bleeding
I cried every drop out to sink into the murky, frigid, water
Why am I here?
I used to be somebody
Until I was stripped away of my pride
only now to be strangled in slavery.

These circles of lies pierce me.
I bear the mark of immortal pain
These wounds, they never heal
With the misery and torment, it only grows
My suffering strains
I tried to fight back
But they kept pulling me down further
They wouldn't listen understand or care
In my mind, I killed them all

Entangling chains cease my mobility
But that has never stopped me from dreaming and hoping
I would rather die alone trying,
than die in a crowd with restraints on.

Doomed in perdition
my spirit slowly fades to black
And all that is left of me is nothing
Except for that vacant body that waits

Alone in the night