I Have to Admit

 have to admit
that i miss knowing the reasons
behind why this was the Best time Ever
I'll admit that i miss being the reason

I have to admit
that i don't stop thinking about you
even when you're with her
I'll admit that I had wanted to be her

I have to admit
that when i pass by your street
your the first house i think about
and the last car i see
I'll admit that i know where your bedroom window is

I have to admit
that i think back in time
and try and correct all the mistakes i've made
I'll admit that my judging has kept me awake until nite time fades

I have to admit
that i regret that last drink
even though it made me feel more alive
I'll admit that i wish i was sober enough to know what we could have done

I have to admit
that when you touched me i cringed
because i couldnt stop thinking about "him"
I'll admit that i wish i was kissing that boy again

I have to admit
that when you call my phone
and want to take me out that i contemplate why you are asking me
I'll admit that I want to be a hermit a lot of the time

I have to admit
that in all my fault and in my wrecks
and in all of my misteps that i have learned something
I'll admit that i wouldnt change a thing