On watching my child try painting.

On watching my child try painting.

A Poem by h d e rushin

Oh God, of this insolvable princess made so by sunstroke
and school busing. Making the slight,
gradual mountain tops with the same anxiety
as a sniper who hides in tall grass. I suspect 
that art, the making of such intarsia,
yeah everything with color coded-ness
and permanence that washes away like
grain or topsoil.. My heart won't
dare tell you that the horse is upside
down or that his mane is reciprocal

or that the force he might give away is free
like purpose; free like saturation. Or that
the white,  windowless house is unknowingly
where your Grandma lived when slavery
had curved by her soul, too young to toss
herself down the well of external reference.
so if you read this before you find a cute boy
to love you or before you

find a cute boy that buys you pizza, i wish that
for you since watercolor overcomes it all. And I
am unwilling to endure the intus
within. Color does that to a Black man.
He thinks that all substances are organs
and attitudes that grow outside the body.
So he lives without permission
just believing in the beige vision,
however smooth, that the distance
from the red shore is involute,
unwittingly
to the blue trees.

© 2017 h d e rushin


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whoa!! so much woven with the colors of the minds eye... the eye of a child, the history of slavery and oppression, the wonderment of human beings and how they see upside down horses... I think your metaphors and images are wonderfully written in this amazing poem... and it seems that your daughter paints as well as her mother collects and lays down words... I can only add that I am envious of you both...

redzone

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you dearest love redzone for your interest and your kind remarks......dana
Your words curl toes and mind, sharing your own feelings with deft recognition to truth and tale. You touch history and ethics, you weave sadness with absolute joy. Sight is your mantra, the texture of colour ever aware.. and you made me feel 'longside you, wanting to cheer the courage that put these words on display.

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you my dearest emmajoy....i've been away for a while, getting my thoughts together.....Love an.. read more
Such love expressed by such acute observation of the child, her anxiety, her carefulness. This is certainly prose straight from the blooming rapture of a mother's heart as she witnesses her child experiencing existence. And with memory, continually witnessing every piece of history that paints what the child sees and how she is seen, illustrates part of who she will become and what strengths and weaknesses she'll develop. And within all that, what love she'll find, what love will find her.

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thanks so much M. Shepherd for stopping in to visit me...and glad to see your still writing and read.. read more
Last summer, my son Charlie was writing birthday party invitations to his classmates. 'Whose that?" I asked him, not recognising one particular child's name.

"Oh, she's new in my class," he said, "she's really pretty," (Blushes all round!.)

I asked him to describe the girl for me, and all he could think to say was that she laughed a lot and had nice hair. On the day of the party I was introduced; and my heart melted when I saw that the little girl was not only a recent addition to the school, but she and her parents had only just come to the UK from Ghana.

Such is the beautiful innocence of children.

Beccy.

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

yes..Beccy..."such is the beautiful innocence of children". thanks again for stopping by my friend.... read more
You write very cleverly with a brilliant use of words, putting across your points in no uncertain way Thank you for sharing This poem

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you great aunt astri.....for those kind comments....dana
To see the world, to feel it, through the art of a child - how quickly we lose that sense - and appreciation for blue trees and upside down livestock.

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you KL for your kindness my friend...dana
damn this is good...a journey back to that stage of coloring...within the lines maybe...but often outside of them...because make believe allows us so many more places to go...and this poem reminds us to do that when we can...because we are all slaves to life and its expectations for what we are or may be.
unwittingly or not...we go too often, where we are supposed to go.
every poem you write is so fresh, so different, so engaging.
j.

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you dear jacob for your continued support my friend. My only wish for the new year is that I c.. read more
To take your heart and place it on view as this takes supreme courage.
I am reminded of Picasso who said first of all children are the true creatives. And The artist is a receptacle for emotions that come from all over the place: from the sky, from the earth, from a scrap of paper, from a passing shape...
Paul Klee wished to paint like a child. What you have said here will haunt me. You have opened the box on love, on memories , on a childs creativity, on pain and ultimately on the joy of seeing something so precious if only briefly. On wishes. On if only. On being beautiful even when all else bleeds.

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you my dearest Ken for those kind remarks...Your painters heart knows best the wish of color a.. read more
I enjoyed the journey and thoughts in your words dear friend.
"My heart won't
dare tell you that the horse is upside
down or that his mane is reciprocal"
To view true and innocence perfection. Better to hold silence and be thankful. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

Posted 9 Years Ago


h d e rushin

9 Years Ago

thank you dearest Coyote.....She's gone on to glory now since Jan..2014 but the images still live in.. read more
Coyote Poetry

9 Years Ago

You are welcome dear Dana.

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