poet

i was trying hard not to be this thing. I didn't have a precise word for my state.

nobody wants this. if i had my choice ide had accepted the role i was given

and spared myself the utter annihilation of my life. my x asked me how i could lie

to her and the truth is, i didn't. i wouldn't wish the prom on anyone. puberty. going bald. 

i freaked out and did everything i could to not be that thing. i didn't want to be that

thing but i am and i cant help it. painstakingly, poems are the only way to be proper

and careful with hurt. and the only ocean where you can drag love still flailing,

UNDERWATER.

Reviews

[Mari' Emeraude]

I just melted at the last breathtaking line! A solid 10!!

[h d e rushin]

thank you Mari' for those kind remarks my friend.

[Richard🖌]

Gosh, Dana,
I've missed you.
Ya know(?), the process of living life and learning can do a lot of things to us, make us so many things … some, we can't believe how amazing we can be … some, we are amazed at how we become things we never wanted to be or never would have, if left a choice.
Still, we have poetry, and in this infinite world we can make amends, create scenarios, and fly, disappear, or be the greatest lovers the world has ever known.
It all depends on how creative our imaginations are, oh-yeah, and on how adept we are at speaking in poetic voice.

Hugs to you, M'Dear Poetess … we need them sometimes, smiles, too, eh? ⁓ Richard : )


psst! how did we get to be "not" friends?

[h d e rushin]

thanks Richard.....it's probably because I lost my internet connection for a while.....I'm finally finding my way back to the café..I've missed you too my friend....dana

[Alessander]

i didn't want to be that
thing but i am and i cant help it.

Preaching to the converted. Lots of non-artist/poets I know often assume that it's some great exhilarating vacation to be one. As if it's all beaches, sunshine and love - roses, wine and kisses...

But feeling deeply is the proverbial double edge sword. Hart Crane didn't jump off a cruise ship into the Pacific for nothing. Plath didn't stick her head in an oven to check the temp.

The journey is fraught with perils.

And in the end, it's not a hobby, job, profession, but a calling.

OK. Rant over!

Thanks for sharing this.

[h d e rushin]

In fact Crane hated the word Poet. He thought it too effete, (his words) too looted of the glossy suggestions that reflect periodic powerlessness. (my words). As for jumping to his death, ever homosexual poet is a romantic visionary. I love your words here Alessander ....those about it being a calling. Perhaps it is/ dana

[Beccy]

Being unable to articulate what boils and bubbles and blisters inside must cause only rage and resentment.

Perhaps poets think too much; but that is better than not thinking at all.

Beccy.

[h d e rushin]

80 percent of the children in Detroit schools read at a fourth grade level. Which means that as adults they will grow to be functional illiterates. Perhaps we read too much to balance the world of those who don't read at all. We are all guilty of thinking too much, which in itself, is a falsehood of belief, since we also seem to be the most gullible and sentimental of folks. Thank you for having such a great mind.....dana

[The Twin Arenas]

That last line. You're right. That's what I've been doing. Now that night has sat itself down, I'll be chewing on this until my next cheap bucket of balls.

[h d e rushin]

we try like all hell (because poetry is actually trying like all hell) to correct the world around us. and although the stimuli cannot be fully explained to the ones we love, the stimulus's tourbillion, whirlwind-vortex brings us pleasure. And pleasure is the same as great favor. Thank you my friend for those insightful comments....dana

[J. B.]

For those of you who are friends with JohnsDavidburg on here; be aware of how he will spam all of your content and then make other profiles to stalk you if you block him, if you have anything even remotely critical to say about his work. He is extremely egotistical, arrogant, and has an eccentric and extreme sense of entitlement.

[h d e rushin]

i'm actually smiling at this J.B. Thank you for stopping by to visit me./ dana

[J. B.]

absolutely! :)

[Davidgeo]

"ide" is not a stand alone word. Using the proper "i'd" makes using the word "had" after it redundant as the contraction itself already means "I had".

[h d e rushin]

A woman was half sucked out of a plane at 30 thousand feet I read. I saw such a thing in a James Bond movie (can't recall which one) almost 35 years ago. I mention this because towards the end of everything is the grammar that campaigns for anything. It happened because the Bond movie says it's possible, but I thank you JohnsDavidburg for any advice at all my friend. And I actually have a grammar book here on my desktop. In fact, i'm looking right at it.....love you....dana

[Davidgeo]

Goldfinger is the name of the movie.

And your response seems incoherent to me. My comment was just a simple grammar correction... Why did you mention your grammar book? Did you make the error on purpose or are you insinuating there is no error to begin with... Can you please clarify?

[jacob erin-cilberto]

yes, we have that license...and poems can go anywhere we want them to...and less scary than much else in life---
although a lot of my writing, when it is sad, creates worry in others...and they are afraid i am going to go from a bad place to a worse place.

[h d e rushin]

we do have the license don't we Jacob? so many think i'm just loosing my mind and perhaps it's true. Whatever. none of this stuff comes with any instructions. Proceed at your own will....thanks brother.