Unconcious desires

The Dalai Lama walks into a pizzeria and says 'Can you make me one with everything?"......

 I neither desire 

the highs nor the lows 

or the elation of a first kiss, 

temptation to dissolve 

captivates my heart 

it is my longing and wish. 

Heaven and Hell 

having no claim to me,  

I melt into the aether of existence. 

Love has vexed my soul, 

those close have driven the dagger so deep. 

I want to walk in unconscious thought 

as a kind of forever sleep. 

Please don't get me wrong 

in these words of rhyme, 

mistaking it as a plea for help 

or depressions cry, 

in my understanding 

I grasp the fact 

death is never the answer, 

I have to continue 

the race I run. 

Life has a weight all its own 

as I wait for the 

days final conclusion. 

I've had to cease investigation 

into the question of "Why?", 

I lean on ancient wisdom's words 

"It is what it is". 

Some things just happen seemingly random, 

some things are an orchestration of divine doings, 

some are just the machinations of bitter minds, 

all this rambling to say, 

existence is painful and 

I am fatigued with being its punching bag.......   

Author's Note

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Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

What a sad, sad way to feel, my friend. Have felt that way in the distant pass, it hurts like hell.

Perhaps I've learned to look only for the happiest, kindest, gentlest of life.. rather than lean on the backward flow of sadly - the knocks and worse. We're all so very different, each being unique in so many ways. But for me the all about and its wonderful this and that intrigues and helps guide me through sunshine, whether it's raining or not! At night when it's pitch dark, we know for sure that there are stars up there that we just cannot see YET know their truth. And that is life: the good and beautiful is there and always there if we keep looking and gazing, then, repeating that process rather than see only the dark. Yes, my dear friend, is easy to say that that but sometimes we need look in other directions to find the best journey.

[Dave W.]

Thankyou Emma, its a really weird time, I am thankful for good things in life, it's just been a really long storm, too many downs and not enough ups, I have just been really sad but not enough to do anything stupid, I just write to try to get it out, and to let others know they arent alone in depression, things have been really isolating lately and the darkness is palpable, the sun will shine again I'm sure of it, thankyou for the kind words. "Dear friend" is a wonderful phrase.