Just Some Thoughts

Was just thinking about a brother trying to be stronger for his little brother. That's how I feel when it comes to my sisters.

“Strong, why do I have to be strong?”

                I don’t want to be thought of being a weakling, but I want to be there for him. I don’t want to let him down. He is the only person that is important to me. The only person I know counts on me more than anyone. I need to be strong. I can’t lose him because he is the only thing I have to keep me going. He is the person that makes my will grow stronger.

                I don’t know why I have been treating him like this. Hurting him the way that I have…I don’t deserve to be his brother. I don’t deserve to be someone that he looks up to when I know I don’t always think of him. I do selfish things for myself. I do them to protect me and I never think of him. I am growing apart from my brother.

                It’s better to be closer to him, but how can I ever do that when I push him away from me? I don’t want him to be in danger…and there is always danger. He’s too young to fight without me. I guess I just can’t seem to make up my mind on what to do.

“I guess it will never get easy.”

                Nothing ever is easy for us since we are different people living separate lives. I can’t just sit here and wait for him to see how difficult this is for me. Who knows what will happen in the future. I can’t say for sure that it will be the same. It won’t get easier. It will just get tougher from here. I hope that he understands why I’m doing this. I’m going to leave.

                I need to leave and let him learn what he needs to on his own. He will find someone that will love him more than I. Stronger, better, and more able to protect him. For now he will have to wait for that person. It will take a while, but I will always be with him.

“He has my heart. No one else.”

Reviews

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I can feel alot of sadness in this story, I can relate it. The ending was amazing and outstanding “He has my heart. No one else.” such a great line :)
Amazing work!
100/100