Letter Reaction

Chapter 31

Letter Reaction

I wish I knew what Chris was thinking at the moment. It seems as if I hurt him and not meaning to. I don't want to hurt a kid who loves me.

I love him back, but I don't know anymore. I don't think he loves me. I bet her can barely stand me now. After telling him and making the decision. My decision was a good decision. It was a really good decision too.

I didn't want to hurt him with this. I know I did though. I mean I know what I said was kind of horrible. Telling him that if he ever threatens me again he will lose me.

I don't know his reaction to when he loses someone. I don't talk to him about that because I don't want him to lose anyone. I am comfortable with telling him things. I just don't want him to tell me things that make him incredibly sad. I don't want him to get sad. That is why I don't ask him. He always has questions for me though. Sometimes I wish I didn't ever answer.

I hope I didn't hurt him. I have written him plently of letters. This one is a lot harder to get through. The other letters are for advice because I don't want him to be melancholy. I don't know if I spelled that right. I just hope you know what word I am trying to say. Anyway that's all I have to say on this subject.