Down

I feel really down. I don't know why really. It might just be because of everything that has been going on lately. My life has just been really hard.

I think it has to do with the new friend I had made. He is being a rude person. He is being a jerk to me for no reason. I just think he hates me. He might though he said he didn't yesterday. I don't believe anything he says to me at all. He puts me down all of the time. I hate when he does that because he doesn't know how I feel.

I hate people do this to me because I feel unloved and I feel really hurt. I also feel like I am nothing like I have said before. I feel like I want to die and that really is just horrible for everyone that knows me. Maybe not that kid, but for me.

I always wanted to be there to guide people, but now I am to down to help anyone. I can't even help my own self let alone other people. I am always trying to help my new friend, but he never listens to me. He never listens to any advice I give him though. I always give him advice and he says he probably won't follow it. Then I will just say never mind to him now.

I hate when he doesn't listen because I am just trying to help him. He likes bringing me down for no reason. He probably wants me to feel like he does. He knows my depression well. I have only known him for three months, but he hurts me now all of the time. I hate when that happens to.

Maybe that is the only reason that I actually feel bad. I liked him in the begginning, but now I think he just wants me to be down and feel bad. He just helps my depression now when he hurts me. Even his friend who barely knows me hurt me. He was being a jerk and I hate when guys are jerks.

I just feel really down. I guess I should be left alone.