MNL-Chapter 29

Chapter 29

-A Day before Jonathon’s Funeral-

                I was walking through the halls with Nicole at my side. Alex hasn’t been in school since Monday when Jonathon passed away. He was still upset with himself for hitting me. I did forgive him, but he said he needed to be away for a while. I know he didn’t mean to hit me. Alex was harder on himself than Jonathon ever was. I don’t know what to do about it. I don’t want him to get mad at me again. I knew he wouldn’t, but still.

                “Is Alex coming to school today?” Nicole asked me.

                “No, he’s still being hard on himself. I just want him to know I forgive him, but he doesn’t believe me. He is never like that…it’s just what happened. I didn’t even tell you what happened on Monday yet. I don’t think I want to say anything.” I said. I didn’t want to tell her about Jonathon. She wouldn’t have cared anyway. I mean I do care because he is my ex and I loved him at one point. Just what he did was so unforgivable. He knew it before he died.

                I noticed that Michelle wasn’t in school yesterday. I know she needed time to cry. She sent me a text saying she would be coming today. I was going to sit with her in lunch. Yes, she is in my lunch period, but we never sat next to each other. She sat with Jonathon and a couple of the other cheerleaders. Despite them not liking her…she at least had people to sit with. I knew they all had a crush on Jonathon. That’s the only reason they would sit with her every day. I don’t know how my friends are going to act with her sitting with us. I don’t want them to be rude to her. Yes, I hated her up to this point, but she is emotionally hurt. I don’t hate her anymore. I just can’t because I could tell she was truly sorry.

                Michelle passed me in the hallway. She had the saddest look on her face. I was starting to feel worse for her. She told me through text that she was only a couple of weeks pregnant. She didn’t tell Jonathon because she didn’t know how. I could understand her reasoning for that. I think Jonathon would have been shocked. It’s been hard on both Michelle and I since Jonathon died. Jonathon’s funeral is tomorrow actually. Michelle and his parents asked me to go. I told my parents that I was going to his funeral. I was asked to speak about him. I was willing to do that. I could feel tears were about stream down my eyes. I wiped them away quickly before Nicole noticed.

                In class I was writing a poem. It went like this.

A couple a days ago,

You were healthy boy

With a girlfriend,

And alive,

Now you’re dead,

And gone,

And will never return,

I am sorry for our loss,

Your heart will still live on.

 

Now that you are gone,

You don’t know you,

Have a child on the way,

But the child will fight to live,

For another day,

We wish you were still here,

To give us joy and happiness,

But now you’re gone,

And your heart will still live on.

                I named the poem Your Heart Will Still Live On. I dedicated this poem to both Jonathon and Michelle. I was going to show her at lunch when she came to sit with me.

-Lunch-

                I was waiting at the cafeteria door for Michelle. While I was waiting I saw my table with Becky and Jess sitting at it. They were gesturing me over, but I mouthed to them that I was going to be a second. Michelle got there and she gave me a hug. She wasn’t crying, but it looked like she was about too.

                “It will be okay, Michelle. I promise to be your friend. I told you in the hospital that I would. Just stay cool because I know you want to cry.” I said to her. I could feel Jess and Becky staring at me bewildered. I walked with Michelle to my table.

                “I don’t know about this. I know they hate me.” Michelle said in a sad tone.

                “I have something to show you when we sit down. I will come to your rescue if they tear into you.” I knew my friends were going to…but they didn’t know about Jonathon. Only Michelle, Alex, and I know about it. I think the principal knew now. I know his parents called the school. We were going to have a half day tomorrow. I wasn’t even going to school tomorrow. I wasn’t going to tell my friends that though. I think they were going to announce it over the loud speaker today before school ends.

                Michelle sat down at the table and they were glaring at her. She hid behind me and was holding onto my back. Nicole and Theresa came back to the table. They saw her and glared at her some more. Nicole was the first one to say anything. “What are you doing here?”

                “I-I came to sit h-here.” Michelle said holding onto my back tighter. I knew she was scared of what they were going to say. I was scared for her actually.

                “Well you aren’t welcome here. What you have done to Aubrey is unforgivable. I don’t even want to see your ugly face again. Do you hear me? I mean I will see you at practices, but that’s about it. You are the most hated girl in the school. So I wish you would just disappear and never come back.” Nicole said. That was mean. I felt bad because Michelle started to cry. I stood up shocking Michelle.

                “Listen, stop being so mean to her. Just because she hurt me in the past doesn’t mean anything. I have forgiven her. If you haven’t then that’s your problem. Oh and by the way, say anything again you don’t need to talk to me anymore. I’m tired of everyone picking on Michelle now.” I said to them.

                “Bre, why are you defending this tramp?”

                “That’s it! You need to stop being so mean to her. She did nothing to you. Leave her alone. If you want to know why she’s here then go ahead and ask.” I said giving them straight attitude.

                “Why is she here?” Becky asked with a glare at her.

                “Jonathon is dead just so you know.” That shut them up really quickly. They just looked at me as if I was lying.

                “You must be lying. No way he could be dead we just saw him on Monday.” Nicole said.

                “He died on Monday night.”

                “What you’re serious?” Becky and Jess said together.

                I just nodded and that shut them up again. I was glad that there was a silence. I didn’t want to hear their voices at this moment. Michelle was still holding onto me. She was crying on my back. I turned around and she was crying on my shoulder.

               

 

Reviews

[Emunah June.]

Cmon Alex, where are you?!

[No name]

Real sad but where the heck is Alex when he is needed. Aww poor Michelle, feel real bad.

[Jane Doe]

I can't believe alex )':
Ugh!
Awww poor m even though I don't like her and sad shes preg
Alex better get over it Aubrey need him now more then ever! He needs to get over quick too):

Xoxo
~lil Sis

[Leave me alone....]

awwwwww :'( i feel so bad for Michelle now!!!! I WANT TO HUG HER TOO!!! And Aubrey did the right thing, she stuck up for Michelle dispite everything in the past, thats what true friends do. Great chapter by the way and i can't wait for more!

[Missy Moooooo]

wow that was a sad chapter :( but a thoughtful poem, It makes me mad that Alex hasn't really talked to her since he hit her, I mean I would be afraid too, but if she forgave him he gotta forgive himself. I hope he comes around. That's sad that you killed off Jonathan. but some people will be happy, even tho it is sad. :(