MNL-Chapter 30

Chapter 30

-Ten Minutes before School Ended-

The principal was about to come on the loud speaker to announce that there was going to be a half day of school. Lunch was silent for the rest of the remaining time. It’s sad that they didn’t believe me the first time I said it.

“If I can have your attention tomorrow is going to be a half day for all schools. Tomorrow is going to be the funeral for Jonathon Rambling from the eleventh grade. He was in a car accident. He died Monday night after school.” The principal said over the intercom. After school ended I went outside. Alex’s car was there.

I walked over to his car. He had the window opened. A sad look was written on his face. He looked depressed and I knew he was. “Alex, don’t be sad please. I know you’re upset about hitting me, but I have forgiven you for it.”

“I know you have forgiven me, but I haven’t been able to forgive myself. I didn’t want to hurt you. I could just feel rage creeping up on me. I should have just taken my anger out on something else not the person I love the most. I can’t believe Jonathon did that to you.”

“I know you’re upset, but he is gone now. He was still in love with me. He died because he knew he hurt me. He killed himself, Alex.”

“I feel bad that he passed away. I just don’t want to hurt you again. I promise I will be better.” He said. Alex drove off down the road. His eyes were still sad looking. When we got to my house I asked him to come in. He smiled, but the smile didn’t reach his eyes. I knew he was still in pain mentally.

Mason was in the living room when I got in. My dad had probably brought him down. He wasn’t tired of being in my room, but he needed to get off my bed for a while. Mason was flipping through channels. He seemed bored out of his mind. When he saw me come in his eyes brightened up. He was so happy to see me. “Hey sis, I’m so happy your home!”

“I’m happy to be home, kiddo.”

“Was it a hard day on you?”

“Yes, it was because I was defending Michelle from my friends. I know we were enemies, but she just lost her boyfriend.” I said to Mason. He tried to understand, but I knew he truly didn’t understand what was going on. He was still young. I was young myself and dealing with all this drama has been stressing me out. Alex was quiet so Mason didn’t notice him right away. Alex put his arms around my waist and pulled me into a kiss. I was glad he was able to kiss me again.

“I didn’t know you were here, Alex!” Mason said hyperly. I didn’t tell him about what happened between the two of us. Mason really liked Alex so he didn’t really need to know. Alex smiled at him, but Mason didn’t believe his smile. I could tell that Mason knew that something was up. I wasn’t about to tell my kid brother what happened between us.

-Next Day-

I was getting ready for the funeral. I was going to wear a long black dress. Alex said he would go with me. He was going to pick me up and bring me to the funeral. I was glad that he had the day off. I knew I was going to need his support through all of this.

We drove in silence to Jonathon’s funeral. Michelle was standing outside the door. She was crying and I knew she was waiting for me. I knew she was going to be more emotional because she is pregnant. When I walked over to the door I pulled her into a hug. She wouldn’t stop crying. I just sat through the service listening to whoever was talking until it got to my turn.

“Would Aubrey please come up to say a few words about Jonathon?” said a person that I didn’t even know. I just stood up and walked up to the microphone. I didn’t want tears to fall down my face when I was speaking, but I knew they were going too anyway.

“It is hard on everybody to lose someone close to them. Jonathon and I have been really close for a long time. We had been friends since we were little. We had been dating for a time. Jonathon was a really sweet person. He had a great bubbly personality. Whenever he came into a room smiles would start to form. Jonathon could turn enemies into the closest friends.” I looked over at Michelle when I said those words. “I know for a fact that Jonathon loved each and every one of us here. Jonathon may not have shown it, but you know he loved you. Jonathon when he was alive loved to help people. He loved to be friends with them. He supported through their rough times. I remember back when I was in fifth grade he tried to help me cope with my grandma’s death. He was there for me to talk to. He was a shoulder to cry on. Jonathon had a lot of friends and he deserved every one of them that he had. He may have lost himself before he died…but he will never be forgotten.”

I had been done speaking because I knew I was about to cry. So many things that people didn’t need to know were coming out of my lips. Tears started to run down my cheeks as I walked off stage. I started to run out the door of the building. Alex and Michelle came after me, but I needed to be on my own for a while. They were still following me. I was crying harder than I ever have. I didn’t think losing Jonathon would ever been this tough.

Alex grabbed me and pulled me into his arms. I cried my eyes out in his arms. Michelle patted me on the shoulder. I know we were going to be friends now. I couldn’t just leave her alone. I wanted her to have a friend.

Eventually I calmed down enough and Alex just brought me and Michelle to my house. She was crying in my shoulder. Her emotions didn’t come out in the funeral home. I know she needed to cry. I just held her until she stopped crying. I was glad that we weren’t enemies anymore. Jonathon wouldn’t have wanted that.

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