WASTED EFFORT

 

 

Man,
What a wasted effort
Trying to stay in love with you
Lost time, tears, and passion
On someone that wasn't true

 

See when I was in love with you
I took the bullets from your angry gun
Enhaled all your harmful stank
Because I thought you were the one.

I forgave every heartache
Wiped away every lie and tear
Because I saw you the sunshine
That made life's clouds disappear.

 

Truth is, you were never my sunshine
You were perpetual night
I was surrounded by your darkness
Like a the moon at the crest of night

 

Yet I gave you effort
Despite the drugs, alcohol and lies
Forever there as your comfort
When you didn't even want to try

 

I remember the first time you hit me
I ran, swore I wouldn't come back
You cried, begged, and pleaded
And I got caught back in your sack

 

Like a fool I kept venturing deeper
convincing myself this wasn't Hell
Believing the unbelievable,
That this could work out well

 

Dozens of times you hurt me
You blamed it on a drink
Cheating, hitting, lying
Every night my life was on the brink

 

See the truth is you didn't love me
Painfully you showed it everyday
and it has taken real effort
To get the courage to leave  you today.

 

You say no one will love me
You scream I have wasted my life
but I know that God loves me
And that love is not based on strife

 

So ultimately its no wasted effort
To finally get away from you
Because God promised me peace
and a love thats forever true

© 2013 Eddie Phillips

Reviews

[PiscesHeart86]

I really love this poem. I wish it ended before you found your power for some reason. Maybe because I was truly feeling what you were saying and then you found your power and awareness of the love God has for you. I personally didn't want to feel the resolution but I'm sure for you it was therapeutic. Good Stuff!

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you for reading. I like the resolution because I am a person of faith. I think that people in these situations break up and go right into another bad relationship. I think that you can go two ways. As a person of faith you realize that God loves you in spite of and you can take comfort in knowing he will be there while no one else is. As a person who may not be religious you can take comfort in knowing you can walk out and be strong without needing another relationship until you are ready. I am a person of faith so I wrote it my way. Still it takes strength to leave that kind of situation. Thank you for reading.

[Marc Marlon Villaflor]

Great work Bro. very real I can feel every words expressed in this piece!

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you brother that means a lot. Thanks for taking the time to read this poem.