Unrequited

Surely it was wrong, to think about another girl this way

And still my attention, my gaze, kept gravitating back

To the way she moved her hands to gesture wildly when she spoke so passionate and freely

To how her cheeks managed to round slightly but still pull tight as her dimples showed when she smiled so bright and warm

To the absent way she ran her fingers through her hair, pushing it subtly to one side as she laughed and let her bangs fall loosely over her forehead

Like two magnets of opposite poles being forced apart, I drew my eyes from her face that shown so brightly, that convinced me there was a chance, no matter how small, that it was okay for me to love her

But I couldn’t be that obvious, not when there were other people around, and not even when it was just us

For this was a secret only meant for me, a burden she didn’t need to carry, something I alone needed to hide

Even when our fingers brushed that night and she looked at me so deeply with that rounded smile, I could smile back easily

Because it was her

Because I knew that she didn’t know

Because the fact that there was no chance she felt the same brought me some sick sense of comfort

It was okay for me to love her, because she would never know, and never love me back.

Author's Note

Please tell me how I can improve this, even in the smallest ways. It's my frist time writting a poem for fun, and my first time writting a poem like this. Please also note any grammatical errors or ways I can improve my writting style or vocabulary. I would also love suggestions for a different title as I don't know exactly what to call it and want it to be more creative.