i don't even know

Yet again, wanting to write with no real intention.

I'm so worried, I'm so scared,

As if my heart is already buried,

My panic will not steady, 

I'm not ready to cry again,

But then again, 

I'm an average teenager,

I'm 17 and immune to danger, 

but the clouds are starting to linger, 

I wish i was a country singer, 

Just to get away from here, 

I will not label myself, 

I tell myself that Ill be fine,

Even coming out wasn't this scary,

I was weary, my thoughts were wiry,

Mixing this with the fire in my heart, 

and we could restart,

The world just seems dark and cold,

I was always told poems about robins from my grandfather, 

And how they could just fly away, But I see his as the red belly perched on the bench,

I wish he could stay.