irrational patterns

irrational patterns

 

 

sifting through logic

i found a thread of thimble-size reason

it needled me that it took this many years to find it

 

to find myself,

sewn into the fabric of love

with many pieces, like a strain of quilt

 

the borders are frayed with experience

and i admit to being rough around the edges

 

but i loved with as much warmth as i could

tucked in significant others

between sheets of symmetry 

 

yet my toes stuck out

and that frost hit the heart

gangrene filaments

misconstrued stitching

 

the quilt is long worn out, and given to Goodwill

and i am left with a few sniffles

a coercive cough that won't let me forget

the words in my throat, i meant to but never said

 

but as i sift through logic

i question the logic itself

of sifting

because the sands of time are shifting

 

and i'll never really understand

what it's all meant,

 

except how the needle punctured my heart

and the bleeding was and is quite real.

 

 

erin-cilberto

6/3/16

Reviews

[Ruth]

Sigh...such reflection seems a vicious cycle at times...reasoning is a strange thing and not always answerable...palpable Jacob...

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your words, Poppy.

j.

[Lyn Anderson]

Rehashing it all in our minds doesn't help, but we do it anyway, even though the result is ultimately the same. If we are lucky we change the patterns a little each time and don't repeat the same mistakes in quite the same way.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your insightful words, KL...

j.

[Daydreamer]

This sums up the irrationalities of love.
From my perspective unrequited love is the most selfless.
Unfortunately people often find this particular kind to be the most heartbreaking.
It takes a brave soul to love fiercely without return and even braver one to write about it.
Well done, as always, Jacob!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i agree with you on unrequited love being the most selfless..

just to love without expecting in return..

important to give.

thank you, Daydreamer.

j.

[Phillip Francis]

It's interesting, some of the truest moments, the moments when you feel alive, when you feel like you have found who you are and who you want to be, arrive at times when logic has been disregarded, tossed to the side, without fear of the unknown or future mencing with thoughts.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your insightful review, Phillip,

j.

[andrew mitchell]

love, once bitten never the same, but always ready for another try, until left battle scarred. before love life was so rational and logical.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

so true, thank you for your insights, andrew.

j.

[Pryde Foltz]

Some writes read truer than others ... a true read here for me, Jacob. Your soul runs deep:)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review, Pryde.

j.

[rutherford]

The tension between logic and love. Not sure we'll ever understand love but for the joy of having it even if it leaves us.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

yes, even if the joy is short lived, it did live.

thank you, rutherford.

read moreyes, even if the joy is short lived, it did live.

thank you, rutherford.

j.

[Sami Khalil]

Hope sustains us on life support along with faith and logic, to keep us grounded or healed. As long as the heart beats, there is another moment in time for love to be embraced and to embrace us. A true significant other will just be there when we find that we are worthy of love and its many facets. You are worthy by any reason of irrationality and valuable in any season of shifting. The shift change must start within.....An excellent one although sad great poet...:)...........

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your very kind words, Sami.

j.

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome. ....:)))))

[Lydia Shutter]

A poignant write. I have to say, though, it is never too late, Jacob. The sands of time DO shift and what is important to us in a relationship changes, but there is always hope to find a satisfying relationship. Again, the metaphors you seem to shake out of your sleeve are incredible to me. Lydi**

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review, Lydi...

j.

[Crystal Frampton]

Reading this poem, throughout is a beautiful image which has been woven through your writing. This poem is certainly an impeccable piece of writing thank you for sharing it!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind words, Crystal,
j.