Conflicted

So conflicted
I hate him
But I love him
and I want to be there for him
but he sends a thousand feelings through me at once.

I want her gone
But i want her there for him
She's keeping him in one piece
Like I used to do
But I gave up that right so long ago
So now i just stand by his side
Forgotten
But pretending
that I still mean something to him
And that I'm helping her
Hold him together

I wanna turn away from him
But its like I'm an addict
And he's my drug
And just a moment away leads me into withdrawal
A feeling to horrible to bare
So i stay close to him
Even if he doesn't want me there.

Author's Note

Its not very good and its also very cliche but he always brings that out in me. Just needed to let out some emotions. let me know what you think.

Reviews

[Liza]

an insightful piece of the peace that does not easily lie within us when we are conflicted by our feelings and reality

romantic love will do that to us; we want someone to love whole but realize the destruction they cause our lives - its a battle within to give of ourselves to someone that hurts us....

[Sincerely, Sofia]

I really like this piece. So much emotion in these lines. I can feel the pain and sadness, yet a thankfulness. Such a common happening, yet it is written as a fresh puncture wound.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I know how you feel in this piece. My ex-boyfriend, Lars, did that to me. I still loved him, but at other times I didn't like him. I didn't want him to help me because he hurt me. I just know how this goes eventually you'll still love and care for them no matter what. I still care about Lars though I really don't want to, but he was like a prince in disguise to me back when I was fifteen. Thanks for sharing. :)

[Wingless Angel of Dream..]

I liked it very much, very emotional, very raw and true. also not to be a grammer nazi or anything, i caught this little fellow here: the first 'to' should be 'too', "A feeling to horrible to bare"

[Marlena]

I think this is a good start, but you can do better :) it needs a little editing here and there, and if you work with it a little it could be really awesome. You've got good emotion in this, I just think it could use a little work :)

[Michael X]

this is powerfully heart tugging and sadly ambitious, the reader can feel the
pain, the agony in subtle awareness, your words ring with a tone of truth
and despair and overcoming what ails the heart in order to move on,
is how this awsome poem struck me, you have talent, keep it up