im sorry, i tried.

i know you're here,

somewhere.

maybe sound asleep,

did we ever dream?

                          

and i'm sorry,

for everything you've seen.

you're just as scared,

as when we were thirteen.

                                     

we aren't young anymore.

there's no rivers and mud.

you were left there,

so you didn't end up like us.

   

when winter came,

i tried to cover you up.

protect whatever we were.

whatever once was.

  

now you're here,

and i can feel your disgust.

in the end its just us,

because just me isn't enough.

        

our total demise,

i'm past the last crutch.

with you at the trigger,

i pray that you'll finally feel loved.