diamond dustin and the big 318

i need control

i roll my bedmat in the mornings

and unroll it the same every single time

hostel bathroom screams, thin wall passengers

i'm always out of sight

 

hostel bath night terrors

i've always been afraid of water

and shower heater burn marks

i wake up drowning,

my saline womb ran cold

 

hostel bathroom passengers

i need control

 

in the morning i have my

lonesome cigarette, i quit coffee

because i loop and dream,

my thoughts run cold

i lose control

 

public park screams

the things ive done

 

i lose more sleep

but the dread's all the same

i lose my thoughts

unrolled clean, every single night

 

i need control

i unroll my bedmat

the sheets prelaid tight

ive done this the same

every single night

i need control

i have a cigarette

i go to the park and cry

cursing and screaming

smashing bottles barefoot

getting into fights

the things ive done

unrolling my mind

who have i become

i dont get any sleep at night

i need control

Author's Note

rough draft

Reviews

[Xdemily]

Hello

I read your story recently. The narrative was so clear that it felt more like watching a world unfold, scene by scene, rather than reading. As if it were already destined to exist beyond the page, it naturally turned into images in my mind. It occurred to me that this narrative has the potential to be published, complete with a striking illustrated edition and cover designed by professionals.
I’m a professional comic and manga artist, and I specialize in crafting premium visuals that bring stories to life whether that’s through full-book illustrations or standout cover art tailored for print and digital release. I'd love to help create the story's visual identity if you ever decide to take it to the next level.

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[Neha agrawal]

This piece doesn’t ask for pity. It bleeds truth.
It's not just poetry .it's survival in verse.
You’ve captured the desperate beauty of falling apart while begging not to.