untitled

my eyelashes are sagging and I know they shouldn't be
I think you would've hugged me by now if you cared for me
my inhaler is next to me but I don't want to breathe
I want to turn my forearms red because you'll never see
you lied, Jay
I cry, Jay
when I think of all the times I should've died and I stayed
you love me
in Narnia
I really want to crush you
but much more I want to trust you once again
who do you think you are?
sitting back as I scar
you know that I'm weaker than you
can you see the dark?
I'm in such pain
are you insane?
I went through so much trouble to help you
and you took advantage of how much I loved you
and I'm such a dumbass because I still miss you
I only saw you once I've never kissed you
I wasn't right
I am still wrong
I shouldn't fight
I should throw out this song
you hurt me bad
I thought we had
something to last
that was the past
I faded fast
out of your mind