Sat, Nov. 20, 2010

Dear my Zhao Sheng-xi

This is the….4th time you have drank alcohol! You know, the last 2 were on a school night and you were feeling terrible? Why can’t I be there, comforting you, holding you, hugging you and loving you. Or you being here, for me, when I need a pair of arms to run to, to hold me, and for a kiss to tell me everything is going to be okay.

I know this is a Chinese custom or way of living, of you being able to drink…….but………do you realize you are making me cry everytime you tell me? I am only half Chinese, but I look more Caucasian than Asian because my mother's genes were more dominate....

I think, I love you too…but we never met, I want your love here. Please, my love, come here…..and save me from my pain, and I can save you from yours too…

Wo ai ni....

love,

Li Ming-hua