How It Is

Just some thoughts this evening.

Is this how it is for you too.

With anything it is just the getting started, getting it going, getting the ball rolling. I guess that's because once that ball is rolling you just gotta roll with it, there is no other way. It's that first step that is the Mountain, not the one at the Peak at all, because once we get to the peak, it's just another step. But it is always that first one, that is the one you have to Master. So many missed opportunities on those millions of first steps we just did not make time for, or were really afraid to take.

You know, it is not at all what I think I might become because of making a mistake or out rightly doing what is wrong. This is not what really scares me at all.
It is seeing the myself that I see when I finally put everything else aside and really make my mind up and do everything that I can to make my life better in every moment, to make only right decisions which I know I am completely capable of, I am completely capable of becoming my highest potential me that there is, and it's that, that is what scares me the very, very most, becoming this one, who now I am totally lost just by being covered by this ones shadow, so incredible this one is, so incredible, and He is the possibility of Me. That's the thing, the thing that keeps me from pushing on that big ball, that one I see sitting there every morning now, it is there, I see it, and I step around it to get into the shower and start another day, another day where I step around that ball. Hey, maybe if you encourage me I will see, I really am that strong, that I can believe I can keep that ball rolling', that wants to roll so badly. Can I really keep it going and not let it crush me with it's weight, because it seems so big, still seeing myself as just a twig, just a little twig. On that playground, when I was little, and I could not understand, when they wanted to fight, my little self said why? Can I finally see this me, that he sees, that he sees, my eyes are blind sometimes to what he sees.