47. Letting You Go

I don't have to now.

I know I’ve got to let go

But I don't know how

Even though it doesn't feel like your leaving

It feels like you're already gone

It's like you passed away

But there was never a funeral

I won't find your name in the obituary

I won't find your headstone in the graveyard

It doesn't seem like goodbye

It doesn't seem real at all

Some of us are happier pretending

By we can only lie to ourselves for so long

You know this isn't what I had in mind

It's not the way I envisioned it

It's more difficult than I ever imagined

And I'm having trouble letting go

Author's Note

This poem is about someone in my life who I had a very difficult relationship with. Everyone was telling me to just let him go and move on, but it's not as simple as that.