Bloody Mess

Not who you think it's about.

I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately

It’s true that I almost completely forgot about you

Sometimes we repress things that are unpleasant

Remembering is something difficult to do

 

I didn’t want to dwell on the day you left

And everything that happened after that

Because cleaning up the aftermath was a bloody mess

And all I could do was bandage my wounds

 

Losing you was like losing a piece of myself

I was vulnerable and you took advantage of me

Now I regret all the things I chose to share with you

Some things I should have kept to myself

 

It started out with me pretending to be someone I wasn’t

But slowly I opened up to you

And you used my words as your ammunition

The end was sudden and unexpected

 

Now I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately

And I’m writing this to try and make sense

Of how the person I thought I knew could simply disappear

And how someone who I thought cared could leave me so coldly

 

Now I know better than to confess this to you

But sometimes I really do miss you

You brought me out of a depression

Only to put me right back there again

 

And I don’t ever want to think about you again

I’d rather you just fade away

Like the scars that you left on me did

Because cleaning up after you was a bloody mess