Forgive Myself

Just wrote this super quick. I haven't even read it over. I just wrote it. Probably not my best work.

It’s not that I still love you

Because you’ve given me enough reasons not to

It’s not that I want you back

Because you’ve pushed me way one to many times

 

It’s just that it’s so much easier to forgive you

Then it ever will be to forgive myself

Because even after all this time I still think about it every night

And replay in my head all of the mistakes that I made

 

It’s not that I want to still be hurting over this

I just don’t’ think its possible not to

No one around me understands my pain

They just think you should be happy no matter how you really feel

But I don’t see the point in trying to pretend

That anything about this whole screwed up situation is alright

I can put on a smile but that doesn’t mean I’m not breaking on the inside

And eventually my smile cracks and betrays me

 

Because even after all this time I still think about you every night

And I still regret everything that I did and didn’t’ do

And I forgave you a long time ago

But I don’t know how to forgive myself