Land Mine

My mind is at war with my heart

My mind knows what's best

But my heart wants what's wrong

I can't reconcile them

I can't make a heart see sense

You can't force yourself not to love someone

Memories that once were so sweet

Now leave a bitter aftertaste on my tongue

Simple reminders of all that I've lost

Why does home feel like a war zone?

When did my room become a fallout shelter?

If I'm a solider then where's my armor?

I don't know which side to fight on

Either way I feel like I'm a traitor

Oh how I wish my heart could know logic

 

I can't reconcile the you I know

With the man standing in front of me today

But my heart knows the real you

I can't keep up this fight

Before long there will be nothing left of me

My heart is now a bloody pulp

Why do your arms feel like cages?
When did you become a ticking time bomb?

Every step I take I fear I'll step on a land mine

Why does your voice set me off?

Why do I still pray at night you'll come back?

Why do I feel so conflicted right now?

When did this house become a battlefield?
Who decided to put me on the front lines?
If I'm a solider then where did all my strength go?

I can't fight anymore

It's tearing me apart inside

It's about time that we raise our white flags

I'll surrender if you do the same