For You

Forever struggling. :/

Maybe it's wrong for me to think this,

Because I'm not a firm believer. 

I can't help but think that You have something great in store. 

I often picture You and Satan,

In a battle; in a war. 

And every time I fight my demons, You laugh and say 'Add another to my score'

It's probably wrong to think of You like that, 

But I'm sorry, there's knowledge of You that I lack. 

I try to see Your way, praying here and there.

But I can't help but feel silly talking to the air. 

And as I sit here I wonder, 

Are You reading what I write? 

I have so much to say 

But not enough time in one night. 

I wish there was a way to know if this is your plan. 

Sometimes its all so overwhelming that I just want to wish it all away. 

Were You there the time I was blessed by a Pastor? 

Did You create the chills that ran over my spine?

I felt like You touched me, made me feel more alive. 

It was as if You made my soul glow 

And opened my eyes. 

It's sad to think that I may never know. 

I need to decided, sooner rather than later. 

My end could be near and I could be sent to a place where a storm is great weather. 

I used to dream of love, in my bed when I'm a sleep, 

But lately it's been You that I continuously seek. 

And a place where there's meadows and smiles 

Flowers and deep blue seas. 

I guess in a way this is a letter to You. 

Asking for answer, to show me You're true. 

I know in my heart, the answer lies within. 

You had my soul glowing, it still shines but dim. 

Author's Note

Yes, this is probably very messy and everywhere, but I just, I've just been so overwhelmed. Everyday that goes on, I worry more of my choice. I just, it's so hard.
Anyways, hope you enjoyed.
And if He was reading, I hope He understood.

Reviews

[Constance Payne]

WoW! There is so much truth in this. I often set and wonder about the truth and question every day. Despite my believing my faith is often tested.

It was as if you were within my mind.

Wonderfully written

[Miranda Richard]

Wow, I love this poem! I'm a Christian, and can totally relate to this. As you said, your rhyme pattern is a little rough, but it somehow suits the poem. The ending stanza is my favorite part. Great job :)

[Mir]

Thank to very much!:) I think the ending stanza is my favorite too!:)

[Carolann Dowsett]

He is and He does. This is a lovely heartfelt plea to feel God and to know of His reality. The more you cry out to Him the closer He will become to you. Don't give up because He really is there and He really does love you. Press in and reach out to the unknown and you will find the answers you are looking for. I loved this its so honest and full of emotion.

[Mir]

Thank you so much for reviewing! And thank you for telling me that. I definitley needed it. :)

[Carolann Dowsett]

You are more than welcome Miranda and I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to just inbox me. :)

[Mir]

Thank you:)
I will be sure to do that if I ever need any help. I don't really have anyone to talk to because my everyone on both sides of my family are religious except for like my immediate family (mother, step-father, brother) So just bringing this up to them would cause an outburst of some sort of un-enjoyable emotion.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Yeah I bet, it sounds stressful for you. Anytime, I'm always around.

[Mir]

Thanks again! :)

[Carolann Dowsett]

Welcome :)

[Zachary_James]

This is not messy, i think this is great.

[Mir]

Thank you:)!

[de_maruf]

fine

[poetry-kiddo alienbaba]

He is Michael the arch-angel.
His seal i am sending you!
:)

thx its a lovely letter

[Mir]

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[poetry-kiddo alienbaba]

:)

[Margarette]

I really like this poem. I can feel the doubts, worries and misery of the writer. This is truly a heartfelt, Chistian poem that shows the ups-and-downs in the life of a believer. I'm a Catholic and I have gone through this. Just have faith and He will help you and guide you through the way. Keep writing!:)

[Mir]

Thank you:)

[Elizabeth Carter]

Great poem and great insight. :)

I did notice in the third stanza you wrote a sleep instead of asleep. Just thought I'd let you know:)

[Mir]

Thank you for reviewing and pointing that out! I will go back and fix that:)