Airports

A Poem by Lola

I don't know why airports make me want to cry nowadays. they used to be so exciting. airports meant adventure, excitement, something new. but now they make me want to cry. I don't know whether it's an anxiety thing, where the fear of being late, doing something wrong, being all on my own, I don't know if that is what takes over or if it's the reminder that I'm never not leaving. nowadays airports are just a reminder that nothing in my life is permanent. funny. most people use that saying as a motivational tool. "nothing is permanent". what if I want something permanent. what if I need something permanent? I feel as though airports just remind me that I'm constantly leaving. I don't ever feel like I'm going somewhere I always feel like I'm leaving. so is that why I'm constantly putting on sad music at the airport? or am I at the airport, tears in my eyes because it was the last place where I knew he was mine. the last place I remember losing and belonging to someone at the same time. maybe airports make me sad because I'm constantly leaving a loved one or a loved place. maybe these airports are a reminder of everything I lost and am currently losing...