The eye of the storm

This is about my battle with the mental Illness Bipolar. Words, School and Music are my friends. I have experienced pain I never want others to feel.

I am the eye of the storm, calm, centered, rational

I see what others cannot see and therefore I am alone in the storm.

I feel the bitter rain slicing my face, the malicious cold whipping my body and the earth sinking beneath me

I cannot stop it, no one can hear me, no one can see me, my cries are suffocated

I survive everyday knowing that chaos is only entity that will be constant in my life

 

I am the eye of the storm, Intelligent, fearless, wise

I see what others cannot see and therefore no one knows me,

I feel the insanity corrupting my mind, trudging my way in the darkness and the parasite that is irrationality

I cannot stop it, I am lost in a place that only I can find, the fallen are my anchors and the dark is my light

I survive everyday knowing that chaos in the only entity that will be constant in my life

 

I am the eye of the storm, tranquil, brave, relentless

I see what others cannot see and therefore I live in a world that is recluse

I feel the words psycho, crazy, dumb, cruel, insane and hopeless

I cannot stop it, I let them see what I want them to see and it eats at my infected mind

I survive everyday knowing that chaos is the only entity that will be constant in my life.

 

Author's Note

It's been a long time since i've written, I'm thankful I did. I know there are errors and am open to constructive criticism. Understand this was written in a time which I questioned living. The only thing I have right now is my Intellect, everything else is gone.

Reviews

[Shivalik Kalsotra]

you have a great mind and you are an awaken soul to see beyond illusion and write truth with such playful mood and imagination that every one can connect with your words and emotions in their own state of mind...very few people have such a deep understanding of life...keep on writing such wonderful pieces..I love to read more from you...great work

[Jacquelene Vanessa Moreno]

thank you so much for the compliments on my character. I appreciate your awakening and lovely review, you made me smile and I cherish words from such a talented soul.

[Shivalik Kalsotra]

Most welcome :-)

[Cody]

I feel like you compiled the whole abstraction of bipolar disorder in an orgasmic way.
Great job.

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful poem on a hard topic to describe. You described the struggle and situation with skill.
"I am the eye of the storm, Intelligent, fearless, wise
I see what others cannot see and therefore no one knows me, "
Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry. I like the above lines. When we see too much. Can leave us fearful of what we can see.
Coyote

[Lyn Anderson]

Speaking as a person who is likely known as a grammar fanatic to at least some on this site, and a friendly spell check to many, you are much too hard on yourself. I see little to actually "critique" in this heartfelt, powerful, truthful verse. If you are looking to rework the formatting, you could try either breaking up the longer lines or alternatively, working it into a prose piece. However, as is, it is a strong piece.

[Daniel Sala]

Hi, this is a strong poem with regard to lucidity and clarity of expression. To me it conveys a loneliness within the self, being conscious of the strangeness of some moments, the dark little corners inside where we criticise ourselves unfairly out of frustration.
In fact this is a really good poem, the imagery is precise, the feeling(s) and state so well conveyed. To cover this topic with such subtlety and skill is impressive.

[Jacquelene Vanessa Moreno]

Thank you very much Daniel, you really captured what I was saying. I'm so glad you understood what I meant by being aware and present while your surroundings are sometimes surreal. I appreciate your input

[Daniel Sala]

A pleasure.

[R. L. Hill]

Favorited. I absolutely love this. I can imagine that we all have been the eye of our personal storms in life. "I survive everyday knowing that chaos is the only entity that will be constant in my life." That final line punches me in the gut. Well done!

[Jacquelene Vanessa Moreno]

Thank you, so much very much actually. I feel this isn't my best work since i've been out of the game for so long. It's really terrifying when you are aware and alert but helpless at the same time. Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone, I tend to forget that.

[R. L. Hill]

We are definitely not alone. It is just hard to imagine everyone else's storm when we can't quite see past our own. This reminds me a lot of my poem "Ocean". There was a time I had a major storm of myself where I was washed in depression. You may find it an interesting read.

[Lydia Shutter]

Psychologically riveting words. To feel you are the eye of the storm and experience so many different emotions is to feel out of control. You have expressed the problems those with bipolar disorder have to live with every day and hopefully the more people learn about the illness, the more compassionate they will be. I hope writing helps you in a small way. Lydi**

[Jacquelene Vanessa Moreno]

Thank you Lydia, writing helps me tremendously because what I cannot express I can on paper. I appreciate the kind words and the critique.

[KendallClausen]

I really like the word choice you used. I especially enjoyed the line "I live in a world that is recluse
I feel the words psycho, crazy, dumb, cruel, insane and hopeless" because I can connect with this experience.

[Jacquelene Vanessa Moreno]

Thank you Kendall, It is always soothing to know I am not alone when it comes to pain.